four leaf clover

I found you,
what seems an eternity ago,
broken, battered,
weathered
and not as shiny as any other,
but still, I knew you were mine,
and I, yours.

Plenty were newer,
more colorful,
prettier.
You though
kept my attention,
and I,
yours.

I kept you
not really understanding much
but knowing somewhere
inside,
that some day
it would make sense
reason would come,
as it does,
when it wants,
to who it wants,
and why, it wants, if it wants,
to explain?
Well, I may never know….

But that day,
the day I found you,
I had been walking,
endlessly,
aimlessly,
moving forward,
down my path, but not at the rhythm the Universe had plotted.
Nothing had been right, until that day.

I had looked at my reflection,
in the shallows,
and seen,
only a vague, blurry
picture of who I was,
who I am.
I could not argue with the
reflection,
but I wanted to.

Instead,
I walked on,
further,
farther,
deeper, into the dunes.

I would walk, and look,
until I walked and began to
search, without looking
and look without knowing.
That was the moment I found
you.

I kept you,
close to me,
and swam out,
into the beyond
towards the thin blue line,
that had previously only existed for me.

I would keep you close,
and safe,
until the day when
he
would find you
and take you.

He would see something special about you too,
among all the others,
hundreds or more.
He picked you
as I had.

And so,
even though you were worn,
and very fragile, and weathered so much you were nearly translucent,
still,
I threaded a small cord through the tiny opening
and made a necklace,
for him.

I had no idea how long that would last,
but since he loved it so,
and I loved it so,
I figured we couldn’t go wrong.

As I paddled out, and saw my reflection
I would watch as it too,
saw me,
and together we made our way,
through the break,
towards the calm waters,
and waited
for the wind, and seas, and sun,
to offer an endless wave,
for all of us to ride…..

Editor’s Note – while the essays may not be coming at the random (more often) rate they did, I want you to know that I am busy completing my second book, “Letters to M”, and that has taken a bit of time. I am hoping to be done by Summer, 2010 and back on track with my essays and random thoughts from four leaf clover soon after.